Becca has a come to Jesus.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the future, but then again, I'm ALWAYS thinking about the future. Last semester I couldn't think about anything but being married to Logan and the life we would start together, as if, that was a means to an end. Now I am married to Logan and have honestly never been happier in my life. But thats the thing, it's still LIFE. People always ask me about marriage, as if it involves living on another planet... and it is very different and AMAZING, but it's the same in that everyday carries burdens and decisions and uncertainty, for yourself AND your spouse. I feel like Logan and I are always taking turns carrying eachother through the day, being eachothers cheerleaders and helping the other in any way we can.

Logan is doing that for me right now. Right now I am struggling with uncertainty about the future, and an eagerness for it to get here. I am ready to graduate from college. I am ready to move to Tennessee and move into a new apartment, and start a new job. Right now I am looking for that job. That is one of the greatest anxieties in my life right now, I think in part because I am working a job right now that I am very unhappy at, and I don't want to make the mistake of just taking any job, and then suffer it eating my soul.

That feeling of something eating your soul is awful. I wonder how many people go to work everyday and allow it. It is a mixed feeling of bordem, uselessness, and unimportance. I never knew that I could be so exhausted and drained from sitting at a desk in my own little office for hours. I have learned a VERY valuable lesson from this job though, I desperatly need interpersonal interaction in my job, variety, movement, some level of creativity, and responsibility.




God, please help me to TRUST you with my life. I know that I will always be in good hands with you, my husband, and a church family... Help me to lean not on my own understanding, but help me to acknowledge all the ways that you have provided for me, even in the midst of my own doubt.

I trust you if you if you choose to make my path straight, and I trust that if you dont, you will guide me through it.

Lord, I am restless and discontent in this world because I am not with you yet, give me patience to embrace all the beauty this life has to offer, and give me discontent to remind me it is not my home.

Just for Emily

Thank you Emily for the encouragement to post! lol

Here are some highlights:

-So, first of all, Cayman was INCREDIBLE. seriously, the perfect vacation. I am so blessed to have married into such an incredible family.

-Last week Logan and I were on a walk and saw a shooting star. It was amazing!

-Logan and I are FOR SURE moving to Murfreesburo, Tennessee! So now I am looking for a job... I would LOVE to work for FriendsLife (has programs that work with individuals with mental disabilities) of The Autism Society of Middle Tennessee doing their graphic design and fundraising. But, pretty soon Logan and I are going to fly out there to do some apartment hunting, and so I really need to focus on finding a job in Murfreesburo... (the two above I mentioned are in Nashville, but thats only 30 min. to Murf... and if I got the job before we found an apartment, and would find one half way between Nash and Murf.)

-Last Thursday night we had a passover meal at our apartment with Preston, Jess, Alex and Cassey. We had A LOT of laughs and great food.

-My graphic design business is moving right along!!! I have been so blessed to have so many oppertunities this semester. Still working on my personal logo. This summer I plan on dedicating myself to learning the art of blog design, so that I can spiff up and go public with my Rebecca Watts Designs blog. I'm not posting any of my invitations yet until they go out to all the guests, but I am working on getting up a flickr account for the rest of my portfolio.

pictures of cayman and life coming soon!!!